i can't stop listening to darren hayes, so beautiful. it's half reminds me of a1, at a certian part. its like BEN is singing. i miss ben ): he's like one single & then- POOF. gone? oh & the song makes me wanna blog, & blog, & blog. & i will be like blogging about nonsense. haha. more like i'll be blogging about how i feel everytime i hear the song, of a certian part of it. because i don't express feelings very well. even if i loved you as a friend, i hardly mean when i say that i do. i like rexpressing feelings on my blog. its just more fun. jonathan's home. with kemmy. okay.
going out soon.
there's no where else in the world i would rather be. i wouldn't swap anything for the time spent with you, from me. ;D i can't stop the world from spinning but i can take you pain away. let's all support marshall mathers & avenge sevenfold. you'll look perfect to me no matter what. just the smile on your face. let's just say- the chemistry is stronger than i could imagine. it's harder to stay, but i can't seem to pull away. no, i don't like anyone. haha, stupid (:
discovering the lights & holding your hand.
this line reminds me of the time when- when i was like asdfghjk over k & that night you swept me away! the lights! that one k taught me (:
if the world was perfect, i would only ever want to see your scars. (: cos you know, you make me feel so beautiful-
i have lost my illusions & i drowned in your words.
i'm going for the countdown at cousin's place later, & i can't stop thiking about. then, i think mine did too, mine did too <3
okay, i'm getting a new skin. i still don't know what to choose. des says i need a theme, but my theme changes accoprding to whatever happends in life & such. currently its like i want everything to come to a standstill. people woulda be gone if i went on, people i want to meet will be seperated. plus there's been quite a number of _ nowadays. it's kinda harsh but we're but only young & stupid. i hope you stop it okay? i'll be there for you. (:
yesterday !
i was so tired, it was boring. hahaha. went to meet those two at gwc, but shah was like LATE. then des went to buy her waffle. i called shah & was talking to her. then des & i went to buy chips. ruffles sour cream & onion plus cheddar. & i was still on the phone with shah, who didn't have a clue where she was. i was like O_O i asked her & she said i see some condo. okay! & she suddenly asked me to stop talking about old people. because des said we could buy beer, but i said must be 18 & above. then des asked then why they never check the adult's ic? so yeah, had stupid conversations which was ended with laughter. then walked to my house. watched two vids, but never finished them. drank ;D i loved the drinking part. watched the simpsons & malcom in the middle.
Friday, December 30, 2005
later going to watch movie with shah & des. at my house. they're going SHOPPING. hahaa. for chips & stuff. haha. i shall JOIN them. hahaha.
There's no wonder why
Thursday, December 29, 2005
woke up this morning & was supposed to go to school & buy books, but i got so LAZY. haha, i decided not to go & go out instead. so made calls & so went out with cheng & shah to gwc. we ate yoshi for lunch at like- 3 or three something. then we went to rent sisterhood of the travelling pants at some shop, paid $5 for registration fee, $50 for deposit & $6 for borrowing that dvd. so went to my house, played with the hamsters & watched the show. it was so- dramatic. oh man, i coulda just like O_O. hahaha. anyway talked & now they're gone. buying books tomorrow, with shah. & then PERHAPS we're going out again. wait- i have tuition, don't i? HAHAHA.
There's no wonder why
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
narnia is a better show than harry potty. & chicken little. but for those who don't like predictible movies this is not for you. there's not a single gory scene. even when that smaller boy was stabbed, no blood. -.- kinda stupid la. haha. also when azlan was killed, no blood. i mean- at least must have something. & nothing in the story is believable. michael says it wasn't good. i think it was alright. the train part was BOO. because one minute the smoke was white, next black & later no smoke at all. & while they were in narnia, i can't believe they stayed there la, its not believable. but hey, this is after all, a FAILRYTALE ;D
There's no wonder why
Monday, December 26, 2005
went to sister jennifer's in-laws place last night. i was so tired, i coulda just slept on the way home. the lamb & chicken wing was nice. i LOVED the lamb there, can i have more please? haha. i can't believe i didn't eat a full meal yesterday. sushi in the wee hours of the morning, when i woke up i err- ate nothing. until at night. it was just a chicken wing & a slice of cooked lamb. mmmm. & then played BINGO! dan, kim & didi's present from sister jennifer. she got me the STRAWBERRY bodyshop thing. ;D i remember when nadia was younger, then she was bathing with that strawberry thing & then the smell was so nice i asked what it was. & now she gave it to me! haha. noe i have THREE bodyshop products- its actually all the same, just different flavours & sizes. hahaha. then i went home. messged until around one, because i couldn't sleep. oh wth. but in the end i slept at one. & now here i am, after eating SWEETS from christmas (:
oh, & happy bish bish day (:
boxing day.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
merry christmas.
i'm tired. i slept for six & a half hours. slept around five, woke up at twelve thirty. i want to open presents (: last night was fun. reached church around eleven, & i was sitting at the back, going omg this is so embarrassing. then charissa HAD to come, because i made her. so yeah then we walked around a little. then we went in. sat with rachel, fer, andy & xingying. talked for awhile, then ferlyn, carmelle & amelia came. then our pew had space for only one more. but those three wanted to sit TOGETHER, so yeah, all of us squeezed into the bench & then fer & i wanted to go stnad at the back since there was so little space, but in the end fer, rachel & xingying went at the back. i felt kinda bad la, but they asked me to sit- so yeahh. fer was happy at the back though, CML was there. hahaha. CHRISSYPOO. so yeah, had the mass & all. thanks for all the christmas greetings ya'll. really sweet (: so after the mass i passed this lollipop to denise, this small girl. she was in my camp group. then we walked aroud to find people to pass presents to, it was crazy la. finding people & all. thanks for all the presents to. & then we were outside the alter boys room, waiting for don't know who to get their presents as they kept it there. then we took photos. then don't know who got this can of fake snow foam thingy & sprayed it all over the girls. it make you SMELLY. then talked for awhile, took more photos & then went up to charissa's house. all the girls were like on the couch, going ow, my feet hurt. hahaha. then ate sushi & ham. I LOVE SUSHI! XD XD then went outside. they brought out black jacks & coke. played truth or dare. around 4.20 i went home.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
the "keyboard" panio is FUN FUN FUN. haha, i was playing this song- i don't know what song, i can't remember. but it sounds super nice ;D the jaychou songs doesn't sound as nice as that whatever song. i want to learn nice nice songs! XD XD
i've got THREE pop books- teach me? haha. less than 12 hours time. OH MAN !
& merry christmas eve back at 'cha.
Friday, December 23, 2005
& when i'm gone don't mourn because you wouldn't even care now. i don't give a damn anymore. you still could ask WHAT YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS. i hate christmas, please.
There's no wonder why
Thursday, December 22, 2005
yeah, it's my life. in my own words i guess.
have you ever loved someone so much, you'l give an arm for, not the expression, i mean literally give an arm for. when they know they're your heart & you were their armor. & you'll destroy anyone who would try to harm her, bu what happens what karma turns right around to bite you? & everything you stand for turns on you despite you. what happens what you become the main source of her pain?
"daddy look what i made"
dad's got to go catch a plane
"daddy where's mommy?"
"i can't find mommy, where is she?"
"i don't know, go play, hailey baby, your daddy's busy"
"daddy's writing a song, the song ain't gonna write itself"
"i'll give you one underdog, and you got to swing by yourself"
then turn right around in that song, & tell her that you love her & put hands on her mother who is a splitting image of her. that's slim shady, yeah baby, slim shady's crazy. shady made me, but tonight- shady's rock-a-bye-baby. huh.
& when i'm gone just carry on, don't mourn, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice. just know that i'm looking down & smiling & i didn't feel a thing. so baby don't feel no pain, just smile back.
i keep having this dream, i'm pushing hailey on the swings. she keeps screaming to me she don't want me to sing.
"you're making mommy cry"
"why? why is mommy crying?"
"baby daddy ain't leaving no more"
"daddy you're lying'"
"you always say that, you always say this is the last time"
"but you ain't leaving no more, daddy you're mine"
she's piling boxes in front of the door, trying to block it
"daddy please, daddy don't leave, daddy, no stop it"
goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket. its got her picture
"this'll keep you safe, daddy take it with yer"
i look up, it's just me stading in the mirror, these fucking walls must be talking- because man, i can hear them. they're saying you've got one more chance to do right & it's tonight. now go out there & show them that you love them before it's too late. & as i go to walk out of my bedroom door, it turns into a stage they're gone & the spotlight is on & i'm singing.
& when i'm gone just carry on, don't mourn, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice. just know that i'm looking down & smiling & i didn't feel a thing. so baby don't feel no pain, just smile back.
sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat, the curtain closes. they're throwing roses at my feet. i take a bow & thank you all for coming out. they're screaming so loud, i take one last look at the crowd. i glanced down, i don't believe what i'm seeing-
"daddy it's me, help mommy, her wrists are bleeding'"
"but baby we're in sweden"
"how did you get to sweden?"
"i followed you daddy, you told me that you weren't leaving'"
"you lied to me dad, and now you made mommy sad"
"and i bought you this coin, it says NUMBER ONE DAD"
"that's all i wanted, i just want to give you this coin"
"i get the point, fine, me and mommy are going'"
"but baby wait-"
"it's too late dad, you made your choice"
"now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
"that's what they want, they want you marshall they keep"
"screaming your name, it's no wonder you can't go to sleep"
"just take another pill, yeah i bet you you will"
"you rap about it"
"yeah, word, k-k-keep it real"
i hear applause, all this time i couldn't see- how could it be, that the curtian's closing on me? i turn around, find a gun on the ground. cock it, put it to my brain. scream "die shady" & pop it. the sky darkens, my life flashes. the plane that i was supposed to be on- crashes. that's when i wake up, alarm clock's ringing, there are birds singing. it's spring & hailey's outside swinging. i walk right up to kim & kiss her, tell her i miss her. hailey just smiles & winks at her little sister, almost as if to say-
& when i'm gone just carry on, don't mourn, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice. just know that i'm looking down & smiling & i didn't feel a thing. so baby don't feel no pain, just smile back.
Random
Like your name? sorta.
Were you named after anyone? nope.
Do you wish on stars? i love the stars, it reminds me of __ !
Which finger is your favorite? fingers? fish fingers ;D
Are you a daredevil? perhaps, i wouldn't know, would i?
Do You swear? yeah, & its not good.
What was your favorite toy as a child? my bear.
What class in school do you think is useless? RECESS! XD XD
Do you like love songs? why not?
Have you ever been on radio or television? i've acted & been in those singapore idol news because i was there, radio, i've had my request read out.
What is your nickname(s)? hayden/ babyboy
Would you bungee jump? i wanna.
How many wisdom teeth do you have? they haven't grown.
What is your star sign? cancer
What sport do you play? lots
Can you dance? can i not?
Would you make love on a first date? why would you ask?
Where do you wish you were right now? under the silver stars, right where he broke MY heart.
Would you recommend a one night stand? you'd have to ask me in person.
oh & in the dream, there was this part where leo looked down, & he had the titanic look. he was writing something & i couldn't stop starring. hahaha. i want a dream of calvin now! haha ;D so hot.
There's no wonder why
i had a DREAM on tuesday night. i finally had a dream, like how long i've been dreamless. i dreamt i was at come church thing, i THINK & then there was this special guest, LEONARDO DICAPRIO. hahaha. & he looked like WHOA, hehh. oh, & next year leo's next film with matt dameon caled THE DEPARTED will be out, i cannot wait. i'm baking those cookies today. america's next top model is HIP, as amelia always uses it. i support kim, even though she cannot walk on the runway for nuts, i still support her. i don't like diane, yeah she's plus sized, but i mean, her tummy SUCK IT IN! it's like, one big buldge, a huge turn off. i'm like -.- WTH?! oh & byebye to shahilia, she's leaving today, which makes a total of THREE people away ): bummer.
anyway, i managed to watch america's next top model, which was okay, i would rather skip the first epsiode & start watching from the second epsiode though, & i pity that breast cancer girl. she's got a fat face. was messaging shah & des last night. & then i fell asleep around one. woke up around six -.- so that was why i didn't reply, sorry.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
i'm back to reading my fanfictions, & i'm TIRED. okay, i shall stop reading. just came back from tuition with pan & chen, i'm dead tired. spelt about six hours last night & seven hours the night before. i can't stop waking up around eight, damn. i need more sleep.
There's no wonder why
Monday, December 19, 2005
Last person you chatted with on the phone?
err- shahilia, & that was LONG AGO
The last thing eaten?
chicken pie.
Last person that you went out shopping with?
O_O SHOPPING?! hahaha.
Last present(s) that you received?
that lil one from ENGLAND. ha (:
Last website?
friendster
Last person(s) you saw?
jonathan, mny brother.
Last call you received?
charissa, TWINNNNN !
Last dream?
i can't remember my dreams
Last time in love?
this year? i think.
Last time you saw your grandma ?
sunday
Last sms received from?
ASSFRIEND.
Last fight?
On the 12th
Last electronic device used?
computer
Last tv show watched?
some dangerous moments show
Who's on your mind right now ?
nobody, seriously.
Where do you really wanna go to?
lalaland, not that way ;D
Which do u prefer..yim or msn?
msn, because practically noone has yim.
Do you love shopping?
hell no.
Where do you usually go shopping?
XD XD XD
Who cleans your room?
MY room?
Last testimonial / comment received ?
hotbaby XD choongyee !!!!
What are you feeling right now?
sleepy.
Who/What makes u feel really happy?
Who: all the DARLINGS <3
What: talking to my DARLINGS (:
Who are your enemies?
i just DETEST her. (:
Do you love your friends?
call them the darlings.
Name 5 favourite things you'll always take out with you?
1) handphone
2) wallet
3) myself
4) err- ezlink
5) SHOES. haha
Msn who is the last who logged in?
mrdt
Favourite songs? by who?
EMINEM, greenday, mcr, bsb, nick & aaron carter, jmac, & all the other sweet things (:
Got any plans for tonight?
the night only lasts for another half hour
Do you think 2005 is a good year for you?
both, had my ups & downs.
Why?
because of the in-betweens
What's your fave colour?
GREEN
Who's your best friend?
charianne tan
Where do you like to watch movies?
oh the comp
Where do you like to shop for makeup?
O_O i don't wear? hahaha.
Whats your fav place?
away. (:
for who ever asked, the song is come to me, by jesse mccartney. he's turned BRUNETTE, wth. i prefer him blonde (: oh people, the nick & jess show, jessica is acting as a dumb blonde. she is fascinated by the light dimmer knob -.- how i know? because i watched it last christmas in australia, so there, we're SLOW.
& HELLO ASSFRIEND (:
in actual fact, i've never really enjoyed christmas. i hope this year i will. :/ there's the after party. & all the gifts, i don't know who i've missed out on. oh man, i hope everyone get's one from me. i HOPE. but i don't think i'll pack enough. & HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BRING ALL THAT THERE? i think i'm crazy, please. & there's panio. after this lesson, i'm going back to organ. THANKYOU VERY MUCH (:
but i think they'll make me continue with that. teacher. -.-
i don't know what to write already. RAHH. still got like 5 cards more.
Friday, December 16, 2005
okay, my comp dies. i need to restart it like soon. & my hiatus thingy was only for err. THREE DAYS?! wth? hahaa.
now i shall IRRITATE assfriend (: oh well, i hope lil monster's cookie's don't spoil. HEHHH.
TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): those two (: <3
First Screen Name: err- JeaNNe
First Pet: HAMSTERS (:
First Piercing: ears
First School: club HDB cilcare center
First CD: A1, MAKE IT GOOD. or was it gg?
First Car: that little one which fits into your palm.
First Stuffed Animal: my teddy bear !
NINE LASTS
Last Alchoholic Beverage: LONG AGO. i think?
Last Car Ride: wednesday!
Last Movie Seen: back when we were grownups.
Last Phone Call: charissa
Last CD Played: GARETH GATES.
Last Bath: last night
Last Time You Cried: i don't know.
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your best
friends: O_O no? haha.
2. Have you ever been arrested: nope.
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: hahaha. PARTIAL. wth?! haha. no la, didn't.
4. Have you ever been on TV: yeah, for some acting thing.
5. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: no? haha.
6. Have you ever cheated: HEEEHEE.
7. Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: your asking ME?!
8. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: tried.
SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. shirt
2. shorts
3. BRA
4. PANTIES
5. plaster
6. BRA
7. PANTIES
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. watched oprah
2. slept this morning.
3. woke up this morning
4. i PEED.
5. i brushed my teeth
6. i ate.
FIVE FAVORITES
1. shady's rock-a-by baby (:
2. the carter brothers. hahaa.
3. FRANKVIN. (number ONE)
4. mccartney, i prefer him BLONDE.
5. the rest of the sclub8.
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST]
ANYTHING To
1. charianne
2. tan
3. fiend
4. BOY ! (not REAL boy) haha.
THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold.
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: choc
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. bungee
2. meet FRANKVIN (:
ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. ah. getting howie's number.
i just watched oprah, the kids are really stupid, some of them. other's are smart, but just made the wrong desicion that cost someone else's life/lives. or even their own. oh well.
STOP ASKING ME TO DO EVERYTHING LA.
later you see me become like *%$_(*&*&(%^ everyone, everything. hahaha. wth, i think i've gone MAD.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
today.
woke up around nine, watched oprah. realised i had ORCHAH from last night. on my arms & my knee. oh man, ORCHAH. i know i spelt it wrongly so yeah. don't bother. then realised white hamster was missing ): still cannot find, i think it's gone. went for tuition with charissa & pan. & we went high, starting laughing at NOTHING. hahaha. simultanious equations for amath is %^_(&$# !! stupid stupid stupid. haha, have to read up on something, i have no idea what's it called. after tuition, charissa suggested we go get the BALLS. XD because last week rachel wanted to eat them. so we went to ps, bought chicken ham & cheese balls. took neos & went to macs. now they're both got one girl to deal with. HAHA! i'm so glad i'm free of all those problems now. went home.
yesterday.
swam.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
going on hiatus.
There's no wonder why
i don't know why this feels this way, i don't know what am i supposed to say. is it just me? or is it everybody else- its not like your the king or queen of the world. yeah, sure whatever. i'm just gonna try not to _ . & just- mia
There's no wonder why
Monday, December 12, 2005
i'm going to miss ASSFRIEND. i shall irritate her online & get her all high again when she's back. & assfriend, the photo is in my friendster too. I BET YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT. haha.
FREE LOOP !!!! (: daniel powter is cool man. haha.
good morning. MY BROTHER WOKE ME UP. rahh. i'm sleepy. OPRAH IS ON SOON (: using rachel's computer. bwahaha.
There's no wonder why
Sunday, December 11, 2005
don't wanna close the door, don't wanna give up on it. don't wanna fight no more, we'll find a way around it. where's the love we had? we can make it last. tell me what i gotta be, cause i can't live me life the way you want me to. you know i can't go on livling like we do. do i have to cry for you? so tell me what's it in for, if there's no winner in it. nobody's keeping score, let's start from the beginning. can we make it last, with the love we had? tell me what i gotta be, tell me what you want me to do- because i can't live my life the way you want me to. you know i can't go on living like we do. do i have to cry for you? do i goota stand in the cold dark night, till the morning light? do i have to say i won't let you get your way? what do i gotta be, tell me what you wanna do. cause i can't live my life the way you want me to. you know i can't go on, living like we do. do i have to cry for you?
i'm merely a cat you see, & its not my last life. don't bother, i'll be fine. the ring you gave to her will lose it's shine. promise you will never see me cry.
I'M SAD. rahh. even the little things matter.
my own cousin thought i was a boy ):
lil monster's going to acsi. NOOO ):
no more pm/ kayden/ lil monster in my class.
i'm gonna miss you-
i got a cookie baked for you.
so you better collect it from me soon.
& i think i'll give one to rena too.
why must all the bad things happen at the right time.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
what do i gotta be? tell me what you want to do. i can't live my life the way for you. i know we can't go wrong living like we do, do i have to cry for you- NICK CARTER.
There's no wonder why
i know you aren't there & you can make me wait. but i'm not gonna wait. it's the least i could do, just tell you face to face. i was lying to myself, now i'm dying in this hell. girl, i know your mad, i can't blame you for being mad. but baby here i am, banging on the old front door, my pride spilled on the floor, my hands & knees are bruised & i'm crawling back to you. i'm begging for a second chance, are you gonna let me in? i was running from the truth & now i'm crawling back to you. if you see these tears i'm crying, touch these hands that can't stop shaking, hear my heart beating. you will see a different man.
There's no wonder why
ripped this off amelia:
Name four bad habits you have:
-i can't sit still & study.-i always cram the morning of the exam
-i REFUSE to sleep early.-i scare people.
Name four things that you wish you had:
-goldspink. HAHAHAHA.-a ticket to OPRAH.
-a ticket to TRL(uk & us)
-a trillion wishes.
Name a scent you love:
-miracle! (: & it's all MINE.
Name four people that know you the best:
-charissa-cheng
- ! ;D
-rena
Name two things you'd never wear:
-big round earrings, they're overused by those. AHEMS.
-keds. because i know i'll never buy them.
Name four things you are thinking about now:
-who won on chart attack last night
-what's in rachel's computer
-why am i doing this
-why am i up so EARLY.
Name four things that you have done today:
-blew my nose up.
-rubbed my eyes
-WOKE UP
-woke someone else up.
Name the last four things you have bought:
-ribena. I WAS THIRSTY.-shaker fries.-terriyaki chicken burger-fillet o fish student meal
Name five things most people don't know you like:
-being on a sugar rush ;D
-i like kittens.
-i LOVE soft toys.
-i love my hamsters (:-stone-ing
Name five drinks you regularly drink:
-water
-barley
-ice blended green apple
-iced water.
-tap water. haha.
First grade teacher name?
-mrs cleetus.
Last words you said:
-okay
Last song you sang?
-err. i don't know. hahaha.
Last person you hugged?
-charissa.
Last thing you laughed at?
-what amelia wrote for this.
Last time you said 'I Love You' and meant it?
-the last testimonial i wrote to di.
Last time you cried?
-i don't know.
What's in your CD player?
-i don't own one.
What color socks are you wearing?
-i'm not wearing socks.
What's under your bed?
-air.
What time did you wake up today?
-five plus. oh man.
Current taste?
-i don't lick myself. HAHAHAHA.
Current hair?
-is still growing.
Current clothes?
-i'm wearing cloth.
Current annoyance?
-i feel so stiff.
Current longing?
-SLEEPING PILL
Current worry?
-i don't want to change class ): acutually chinese work & panio. RAHH.
Current hate?-that stupid idiot who reminds me of .
Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex?
-i don't know, should i be noticing?
Last CD you bought?
-gc. i've lost my respect for joel
Favorite place to be?
-SENTOSA, THAT BEACH, 3AM, THAT DAY.
Least favorite place?
-as they call it, cell.
If you could play an instrument?
-i wanna try the harp & violin
Favorite color?
-green, limegreen
Do you believe in afterlife?
-eternal life, yeah.
How tall are you?
-onesixtwocentimeters.
Current favorite word/saying?
-not saying anything.
Favorite book?
-a child called it.
Favorite season?
-winter
One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to:
-the 3am thing ):
Favorite day?
-i don't know. i never really preferred any day.
Where would you like to go?
-HEAVEN. will you take me?
What is your career going to be like?
-COMPUTERS & PHOTOSHOP.
How many kids do you want?
-i don't know.
Favorite car?
-it starts with l & the next word is diablo.
Type a line you remember from any book:
-for i shall no longer be a capulet. RNJ (:
A random lyric:
SCLUB8- don't tell me your sorry
you took me upyou drew me in
like a moth to your flameyou put your jinx in a deadly kissyour body locked me down in chains
Identify some of the things surrounding your computer:
-phone
-cds
-thumb drive
-calculator
-stationary-paper
Friday, December 09, 2005
i'm not gonna tag anyone, i stole this. haha
it was done, just for FUN.
Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.
I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I love Cookie Monster.
I still listen to s club 8.
the chain letters are starting again -.- that's sucha a primairy school thing. esp the PASS IT ON OR ELSE... yeah right. pffts.
There's no wonder why
Thursday, December 08, 2005
went out to meet RB today.
R bought dragon beard for each one to eat. B bought COOKIE's for each of us (: i bought RB macs. WHEE.
i decided not to watch aeonflux, but to _ it instead. XD
THE BRANSEN FAMILY SEEM SO NICE, BUT WHEN THE RACE STARTS, THEY ^$#*&_(*% ! i prefer the weaver's (:
tomorrow going with chen & pan. WOOHOO.
who are you now? are you still the same- or did you change somehow? what do you do? at this very moment when i think of you, & when i'm looking back- how we were young & stupid. do you remember then?
no matter how i fight it, can't deny it, just can't let you go. i still need you, i still care about you. though everything's been said & done, i still feel like i'm right beside you. there's still no word from you. now look at me, instead of moving on i refuse to see that i keep coming back, & i'm stuck in the moment that wasn't meant to last. i've tried to hide it, can't deny it, you don't even know that i still need you, i still care about you. though everything's been said & done, i still feel you like i'm right beside you. there's still no word from you. i wish i could find you, just like you found me that night- will never let you go.
though everything has been said & done, i still feel you like i’m right beside you.
there's still no word from you.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
got my black _. (: FINALLY.
saw her's & she saw mine. its so wierd.
i mean we're going like THAT.
i've decided to change my blogskin.
but i have to find one first.
& person who tagged on charissa's blog.
HAHAHA, your one asshole.
you really have no life.
tag there like what? four five times?!
long long posts somemore.
& you don't know a single thing.
its funny because you can't stop wasting your time away.
tuition tomorrow & friday.
with pan & chen (:
PICTURES? ;D
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
oh man. this is bad.
_ reminds me of _.
how do i continue? ):
i can't stop thinking of _.
oh man. die die die.
& don't bother to ask ):
its bad enough.
I CHANGED BLOG SONG AGAIN.
bwahahaaas.
its still currently the JMAC CRAZE.
so yes, it is JMAC.
& its the song from my front page.
its sweet.
like CANDY.
i want a giant lollipop & a cookie.
RENA !!!!
okay, i think i'll take back organ.
LET ME TAKE BACK ORGAN!
or else i will KILL you.
my teacher is WIERD. fullstop.
Monday, December 05, 2005
pop piano, first lesson later at 0630.
OH MAN, I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THE TEACHER IS.
plus, i haven't been there in TWO YEARS.
oh man. i can't believe i'm going back.
i hope he teaches me some NICE songs. ;D
& yes, my teacher is a HE.
charissa is crazy, blur & err- (:
she like ?! online. oh man.
someone save me.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
1. Your name plus "o" ?
marianneo. stupido! XD
2. Two feelings at the moment ?
:/ & :
3. What are you listening to right now
jesse mccartney -without u
4. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now ?
no matter what they take from me, they can't take away my dignaty.
5. Describe where you are right now ?
messy (:
6. What is your highlight of the week ?
today.
7. What are you craving to have right now ?
REST.
8. Any unforgettable childhood memory ?
hmm. playing with _ pretending to be SUPERWOMAN. ;D
9. A not-so-good childhood memory??
i cried.
10. What are your nicknames??
mj, babyboy, hayden, charianne tan
11. Your plans for tomorrow ?
call up christifori. perhaps go for pop panio. XD
12. Your two plans for today??
lunch, movie.
13. Are you thinking of someone right now ?
jesse mccartney! haha, noone.
14. Do you party ?
sure, whatever.
15. Do you like twins ?
. DEPENDS. rena & resa are nice ;D
16. Fill in the blank "I am .."
telling you your NOT fat girl.
17. Say something in words to the person who sent you this?
i still have no idea who you are. :/
18. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers
what's your name, oh, i really wanna know ;D
19. Are you feeling hungry ?
nope.
20. Who do you miss rite now ?
really- rena & cheng? i don't know. no one in particular.
21. Last friend you saw online ?
ivan, the last person to come online. anyway, i don't SEE anyone online. i talk to them.
22. Are you in love?
haha. that's out of the question.
23. What do you like about night time?
i'm a 3am person. thank you sentosa (:
24.If you are in a farm, what do you want to see?
a farm animal.
25. Last person who gave a testimonial to you ?
RENA RENA RENA lee.
26. Did you like it ?
yeah, although she expressed her AHLIAN-ness freely.
27. Do you play an instrument ? What instrument?
i play INSTRUMENTS.
28. What song did u last hear ?
jesse mccartney -why don't you kiss her.
thanks to des about last night. just thanks for msging. it really helped (:
rena's JEALOUS of my friendster profile.
& she owes me a cookie. ;D
i can't wait for her to be back.
when will cheng be back ar? she owes me an outing.
i owe lil one an outing.
shah owes me a call & i think i owe her an outing, or was it she who owes me?
either way. MOMMY BETTER SEND ME THE BALLERINA GIRL SONG. my mommy. (: AMEEELIA.
gareth gates's cd really cheers my up (:
went for mass at ten, me seow was there again. after that, joshua's baptism. & then went to christifori to register my class. i'm talking POP PANIO. hahaha, how cool is that? ;D went to gwc to watch chicken little with jonathan, dennis, ian, godma, kim & didi. it was alright- wasn't like as bad as i thought it would be. met charissa & went home.
Just charge it to my account
I hope I haven’t gone over my limit
With interest rates so swift
No need to scream and shout
No doubt if women are from Venus now
I’ll get to them somehow
All I want to do is please you
Please myself by living my life too
And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you
Yes, I recall
Skipping on breakfast to play basketball
And feeling two feet small
Sometimes you read like William Shakes
Your scent is sweet, like Betty Crocker bakes
I’d love to have my cake and eat it too
All I wanna do is please you
Please myself by living my life too
And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you, yeah.
OH MAN; JMAC! (:
hahahhaa.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
ballerina girl (: its sucha pretty song.
its better han beautiful ;D
i love that song, i LOVE it.
watching the party clip by jesse mccartney.
& i want the dreaming video too XD
i want too much.
Friday, December 02, 2005
1.You get one wish of anything, what would you ask for?
a million more wishes.
2. What animal would you be?
none. i would rather be HUMAN (:
3. Something you want to do in your life:
make someone incomplete, complete ;D
4. One time there were these Ninjas... (finish the statement)
they to kill YOU.
5. One song you could listen to over and over again:
hmm, everything sc8 & jesse mccartney XD
6. Coke or Pepsi
barley. i'm wierd? thank you.
7. Something you currently desire:
those two videos.
8.What's a "mastoid"? (Take a guess no peeking in a Dictionary):
FROG, according to choongyee. haha. i didn't peek.
9. One good deed you've done lately:
- <-that.
10. A funny Moment in your life:
i laughed.
someone else just added me on friendster, & i don't know who?! i just added her la.
& you can't go on without it, let the mystery unwind.
TELL ME WHY IS _ SO HARD TO FIND?
oh, & now its the neopets advent calander season, & my neopets partener isn't here.
BOOOOOOO !
plus, i can't remember my password, & its her email account. yes i do know the password, but i can't just go in like that- its an INVASION of PRIVACY.
& i believe you. After all, your inflallible, aren't you?
i don't know, i feel so confused man :/
should i stay, or should i go?
RAHHH.
i forgot how to get there, looking up the street directory now. man. i feel like not going, but i can't not go. :/
cheng's gone. rena's gone. lyanne's gone. charissa's back.
thats a change, when the FOUR of them are gone, there's noone to msg/ talk to online or make them laugh at themselves. talked to shah & des lat night. they are supposed to call, so yeah, WAITING.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
watching MALCOM IN THE MIDDLE.
its their past where its the children coming, them moving into smaller & smaller houses and the toys they passed down & how difficult it was raising them.
